Im feeling so lousy now, so stressed up , so frustrated with myself. Im lack far behind from my classmate in studies, i have been failing all my tests and having massive incomplete homework. I felt so stupid ,.today i tried to settle myself down seriouly and try to complete all my homework. And i realised i have lots of problem with maths now. I cant even do simple a sum. I get so irritated and angry i start slapping myself and punching walls especially when i couldnt accomplished what i want to do. I asked my friends for help but yet none can help me, i turn to a teacher for help yet she cant , i turn to god for many questions i asked about my life and its yet to be answer. i even ask my dog about my problems , she also never answered. i think my 17th life is so screwed up. i felt im useless. i live for who , i live for what. Many questions i kept questioning myself but my answers were not answered. SO FUCKING FUCKED UP NOW. Sometimes i wonder had i ever made my parents proud. Im just fucking my life up, did i choose to live this way? Am i the one who made myself landed up a dumb fuck? And chinese olevels are around the corner and i havent been studying. If these goes on , i cant even get into the fucking poly. I dont know what should i do now. I want to study hard but i cant , i want to do my homework but i cant. I just get fucking agitated when i got stuck with simple questions. And my maths like deprove fucking alot. I dont know where should i start from now. I just cant settle myself down to concentrate on studies. FUCKANDKJSNDSBHFUGDADDSFS! Sometimes i wonder am i living my life all by myself.